I will outline (with pictures) our 5 day drive/journey soon- I still have to find my cameras in our mess of stuff!
I've been very thankful lately, for a lot of things
About 2 months ago, we had the house just about ready for sale, cleaning ALL the time- Looking after a little girl who was crawling up a storm, had mini temper tantrums- and like all babies- needed constant attention. At the same time- Matt's work was going through so major changes, which required him to be at work... pretty much all the time. He was home sometimes for as little as 1 waking hour. Days in a row, he would leave the house at 5 or 6 am, and return home about 8pm, starving and tired. He worked until about 3 days before we moved. Needless to say- I was so overwhelmed- on top of selling a house and dealing with all the address changes, lawyer stuff, packing, organizing, cleaning, making dinners (although no husband was home on time to eat them!), walking a dog and looking after and loving a beautiful little girl... I was alone.. I was leaving our first home- not just any home, but a home we prepared for both our children- only one of which got to use it... It was, and still is an emotional subject. I have to say, for that 6 weeks, I felt to alone, so unsupported. There was nothing I could do.. I guess it was 'bad timing', and Matt has a really strong work ethic (something I admire), so he felt he had to tie up loose ends at work and be there for all the changes that were happening on that end.
He finished work ... we packed the remaining stuff, and got on the road.. and since then.. WOW has Matt made up for his lack of everything the past 2 months! I know he felt guilty for being away so much, he told me he did. I tried to make him not feel that way, but I know he sensed it. I also know, that once he gets a job, and we get into the swing of things in our new city, I will again do the majority of the child care etc- but I expect that.
I am so happy and proud to have a partner that, when he can, helps! He changes bums, feeds bottles, prepares meals, washes dishes, does loads of laundry, plays with his baby girl! It's so nice to see, and it's so nice to have a little break! I love this 50/50 thing!
Charlotte is also loving it. She just loves hanging out with Daddy, she gives him hugs and kisses and high fives, and he is working on teaching her a 'fist bump'! She just lights up when he comes in the room, in a way she didn't before, even just 2 weeks go. I think it's a mutual trust and respect... and it's so nice!
Our truck worth of stuff arrives Friday! It will be nice to have all our clothes, furniture etc. So far, my parents house is lots big for the 2 little families! It will be nice to have our own, but I do think this is a good transition.
We are a happy little family... right now... homeless and unemployed... but happy!
:)
Jane
