A friend of mine, Hilary, whose baby girl, Leah, died just 2 weeks before Noah from the same rare condition, just gave birth to a baby girl today! I am so happy that she is here, and she seems to be so healthy!
Her name is Hannah. She is 9 pounds 11 ounces, born at 4:23 by planned c-section!
Hilary and I live only about 2 hours away from each other- we first met online, and have met up with each other a couple of times. it's amazing how close you can become with another person when they've shared so similarly a unforgettable situation. She understands me, I understand her. It's nice that we are pregnant with our subsequent babies at similar times- we could help each other through the uncertainty!
Now... about 12 weeks left for me- and I can make my own birth announcement for dear little Charlotte.
can't wait to see Hannah soon- I'll visit in a couple of weeks when they get settled into their daily routine!!
Yah for babies- even more Yah for healthy babies!!
It feels good to be 26 weeks pregnant. Not quite out of the 'scary stage'- oh wait- there is no 'out of the scary stage'.. but, I'm feeling pretty good. I'm starting to do all the 'pregnant' things- walk a little funny- esspecially when just getting up from sitting or laying down, run into things- like when you're little and growing, i'm quite hormonal- although I wouldn't doubt that many would say that I am when I'm not pregnant!, and I'm already nesting. Matt even noticed that- I guess our house is becoming clean, on a regular basis! Which is a good thing. We'll see if when i go back to work this continues- my guess is NO!
We are in the process of looking for some sort of wall art with Charlotte's name on it for her room. Individual letters are nice, but rather expensive- and they tend to be large (esspecially for a 9 letter name!) I've found a place that does vinyl lettering (usually quotes and such) and it's a Canadian company, so I'm thinking about that. Also, there are companies who do custom things on canvas, or wood- but they tend to be really pricy, and I can't seem to find many in Canada. Any ideas?? She has a lot in her room, so I wouldn't want it to be too big- but I'd like it there!
Next week is a low key one- I'm off, with nothing to do! Yippy! Then Matt's parents arrive for the weekend- we have the 3d/4d ultrasound this weekend, which will be exciting! Then, on Sunday my friend, Annelieke, has organized a little baby shower for me (she's a teacher too, so is off this month- I know it's early, but it's easier on both of us when we are off!). Then on Monday, I start at school, just teachers meetings etc... but it makes for a busy weekend into a busy 8 weeks of school.. but then... it's ... Mat leave, and Charlotte's arrival!! Hopefully the time will go by quickly!
Turns out... my thoughts were correct. It's amazing how much you learn from listening to others stories of loss, from researching pregnancy, and infancy, from belonging to message boards with other anxious and worried, and scared mother's about to have another child after one has died. My placenta is anterior- which is not bad at all- it just means that is between the baby and the front of my belly-- the only 'issue' I have with it is that it muffles the movement of the baby, you don't feel them as much.
Noah didn't move a lot, although his placenta wasn't anterior (it was low, down by my cervix). One of my many hopes would be that Charlotte's placenta was posterior, so no movement could be muffled. I would rather be blown away with painful kicks than to not feel movement for even 2 hours! I am starting to feel her kick quite a bit- small kicks, that I can feel, but you can't see my belly moving. At least I can feel them!
Most pregnant women probably don't even think about this much.. except for the excitment of feeling the baby move... but like I said.. nothing is actually wrong with an anterior placenta.. just not my preference.. but hey- I'm sure lots of things in this pregnancy.. and in raising Charlotte won't be my preference!
OB visit was fine- nothing new, nothing exciting.. which is a good thing
Well not too much, really can a little girl have too much clothes? probably not.
But in a way, I am glad that I am able to buy stuff for Charlotte. I know it is so hard for some people who are pregnant after the loss of a baby. and it is hard, but I feel, that I need to do it- I need to try, my very best to give her, while she is inside me, the very best of me- like I gave to Noah. I didn't regret anything about Noah's pregnancy (minus the major sweets addiction!.. but really, i got that under control!).. and I don't want to regret anything in this one either. I'm sure, once she comes home, and is healthy (fingers crossed) I will regret my anxiety and worry that I felt, and therefore was placed on her while in my womb.. but I think she'll understand that. She will grow up knowing, but not knowing her big brother... without that extra protector at school, without that bratty big brother who won't let her play with his trucks and cars... it's hard- because I know what it's like to have a big brother.. and in hindsite- it's wonderful. she won't get that experience, the experience she was supposed to have.. and I at least hope she will grow up understanding that he was here, on earth- but now he isn't.. but he can still protect her in some way.. and she can still think about him, talk about him and wonder about him.
Until then... I think I will continue to buy cute little girl things for my cute little girl... I just can't help myself!
A 30 something mother to three. Two beautiful boys, Noah, who lives among the stars and in my heart, and Spencer, my youngest little munchkin, and one beautiful girl, Charlotte, who lives here with us. My blogs are a collections of my thoughts, feelings and ramblings of a women who will forever be changed by all of her children.