Look what I found when I got out!
Isn't this perfect.
Then, I got dressed, put in a load of laundry, and went back into the room- to this!
He he he, Casey even wanted in on the sleeping/cuddling!
I woke up this morning and realized that I have done NOTHING around the house for about the past 2 weeks. Well, Yes, I've cooked meals, and did some laundry. But nothing else. I usually do something each day, or at least clean up after myself.
I think it's the time of year- with Noah's birthday and everything I just get into a funk. A state of numbness, grumpiness and disarray- just waiting for my world to implode on my again.
Of course, nothing has changed. My son is still gone.
But this week, thank goodness- I am able to be me. Somewhat happy most of the time, able to pick my butt off of the couch and sweep the floor, organize a cupboard, wipe a surface. Able to smile again.
I am hoping that at some point, even the week of Noah's birthday I will be able to be myself. Still grieving always, still missing him always- but be myself. That would be nice. Maybe his birthday would actually get celebrated then, and not un-celebrated!
On a side note- anyone heard from Beth? I"m hoping she is just taking a break from the internet world, and that she is OK as she can be right now.
It's s sunshiny day here in Toronto area- once Charlotte wakes from her nap, I think we will go for a nice long walk!