Monday, April 12, 2010

Daddy's Girl and Back to myself

After I fed and dressed Charlotte for Church on Sunday, I gave her to Matt to hang out with while I popped in the shower.
Look what I found when I got out!

Isn't this perfect. 
Then, I got dressed, put in a load of laundry, and went back into the room- to this!

He he he, Casey even wanted in on the sleeping/cuddling!

I woke up this morning and realized that I have done NOTHING around the house for about the past 2 weeks. Well, Yes, I've cooked meals, and did some laundry. But nothing else. I usually do something each day, or at least clean up after myself.

I think it's the time of year- with Noah's birthday and everything I just get into a funk. A state of numbness, grumpiness and disarray- just waiting for my world to implode on my again.

Of course, nothing has changed. My son is still gone.
But this week, thank goodness- I am able to be me. Somewhat happy most of the time, able to pick my butt off of the couch and sweep the floor, organize a cupboard, wipe a surface. Able to smile again.

I am hoping that at some point, even the week of Noah's birthday I will be able to be myself. Still grieving always, still missing him always- but be myself. That would be nice. Maybe his birthday would actually get celebrated then, and not un-celebrated!

On a side note- anyone heard from Beth? I"m hoping she is just taking a break from the internet world, and that she is OK as she can be right now.

It's s sunshiny day here in Toronto area- once Charlotte wakes from her nap, I think we will go for a nice long walk!


Jericho said...

Great share with the sleeping pictures! Too stinkin' cute!

Hope you all got go go out for a lovley walk today!

Avery's Mommy said...

Hey Jane! Luv the cuddly pics!!! Charlotte is absolutely adorable! XOXO

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